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[Oct. 8th, 2004|01:12 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  creative | ] |
heyy guys i just wanted to let you know that i have a new live journal..... heartbrokenx32 comment if u wanna be added
xOx JeN xOx |
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| **Im BaCk** |
[Oct. 3rd, 2004|07:17 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | In one ear and out the other |
| | Nelly *Over and Over Again* | ] |
Hey guys im back!! sorry i havent updated in like forever..... i'll update more often i promise...
Helplessly I look at the knife,
For I see how bad it has cut me deep down and hurt me,
But not knowing what it has done,
It just lays there without a clue,
But I can't take the pain,
The knife can cut someone else,
So I just walk away from it,
As if nothing ever happened,
Because I'm sick of gettin hurt.
-original
i'll update later
xOx JeN xOx |
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[Jul. 30th, 2004|10:35 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  excited | ] |
LEAVING FOR CALIFORNIA ON SUNDAY AND I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Jul. 18th, 2004|12:29 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  grumpy | ] |
So friday i went to vons party, but then left and met up with billy and me, billy and katie went into the village and we walked to the docks and we just talked..
Then yesterday was my block party.. It was fun, it had its ups and downs but wut ever.. Everyone didnt leave till about 1 lol it was funny.. we danced and swam and just hung out
2night i might be goin to the village with katie, chelsea, valley, and von... just gonna walk around and hang out...
and i might be gettin a new phone... I HOPE I DO... mine sucks like so bad |
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[Jul. 7th, 2004|07:29 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| | lonely | ] |
so i went to vons last night.. listened to him valley and derek play... they were really good, then we went in the pool and just hung out..
vons a great a guy, hes easy to talk to and fun to be around.. the first two times we went out it didnt work and i blame that on me... the first time i liked one of his friends and then the 2nd time i really didnt give him a chance.. idk how he can still look at me.. i was such a bitch to him and yet hes still nice to me..
today i wasnt feeling good so i just hung out around the house.. nothing fun
CANT WAIT TILL THE 17th ITS GONNA BE SO MUCH FUN... cant wait to see u jess and mike... i love you guys so much and i wish we lived closer so we can hang out all the time lol |
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[Jul. 6th, 2004|10:53 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  weird | ] |
July 1: I really didnt do nething... i went to karate and got my stripe, i was so happy... i just hope im on the next black belt test...
July 2: went to a few stores with my mom, then just kinda hung out around the house.. i was gonna go out but it started to rain really heavy and i didnt wanna get wet... lol
July 3: hung out in the pool with rikki and helped my parents stain the deck... got a hair cut.. kinda short but i'll get use to it...
July 4 & 5: took the boat over to atlantique and hung out with lenny and anthony... woke up the next morning and felt so sick so we came home and katie, billy, and deb came over.. valley and von were gonna come but they couldnt get a ride here so they didnt...
July 6: 2day im gonna go to vons house with katie, dana, derek, valley, and maybe billy... should be fun... i'll update about it 2night or 2morrow |
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[Jun. 30th, 2004|12:47 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  cheerful | ] |
Sunday: billy and katie came over and we went swimming and then we had pizza and then we watched 50 first dates.. lol we made billy sit there and watch it... then we sat in my room in the dark and just played music...
Monday: I DID NOTHING ALL DAY... and then i went to karate...
Tuesday: went to the movies with katie and chelsea and then we slept over chelseas....
Me: My arms hurt really bad
Chelsea: Why?
Me: Because of karate.
Katie: Your arms hurt cuz ur gay? |
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[Jun. 26th, 2004|07:03 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  okay | ] |
Hey, havent updated in like 3 days..
Friday:didnt really do anything during the day...then at around 6 me, billy, and brendon went to katies and just hung out..we had a really good time..then came home at like 11 and watched tv then went to bed cuz i was really tired
Saturday: Jess came ova at like 4 and we went swimming in my new pool for the first time this year--the water was freezing(lol)..then we got out and walked to mcdonalds wit my sis.. then we came bac home and ate and then jess' mom came to get us and we went bac to her house and i finally got to go on the computer..then i went home at like 9 and i just hung out |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2004|09:30 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
| | sad | ] |
Hey, its been a long time.. Alot of shit has been goin on
My computer is being fixed so i wont have it for another week or two.
June 19th was the worst day of my life. It was so bad. At like 10:30 my cousin calls the house and told my dad that we need to get up to the hospital as soon as we can. {btw if u didnt know my aunt had cancer and she was in the hospital} So we get up there at about 1 and we're sitting in the room with her and shes talking to us but like going in and out of sleeping. Then at about 3:30 she told my cousin that she was in pain. So the nurse came in and gave her a shot. Then she started breathing really heavy, then everyone went to get lunch and wut not and me, my cousin John, his girlfriend Maria, my cousin Christine, my cousin krista, and my cousins aunt were all in the room and at 5 my aunt just stopped breathing. That was it she was gone from us forever. And all i think about is "I watched my aunt leave us forever and i sat there help less. there was nothing i could do." |
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[May. 29th, 2004|09:45 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  hyper | ] |
Well lets see
Monday: Woke up just like every monday, got dressed and stuff and went to school... got to 1st period and we had a sub {which was good because i hate my spanish teacher and i def thing hes on crack but neway} where sitting there talking and all of a sudden the lights start to fade in and out then they go out but they come back on like a min later.. so we start talking again then all of a sudden the lights go out and we hear a big bang.. so were like wtf is goin on.. so we go to second period and the fire alarm goes off and the teachers are like get out of the building get out... so we all get out of the building and were standing on the football field like and houn and a 1/2 later they tell us to go home because the school got hit by lighting.. we all started yellin and stuff and went home at 10... lol that was the best day EVER..
Tuesday, Wed, Thursday where just boring
Friday: went to school then got home and went to karate.. when i got to karate my karate teacher asked me if i wanted 3 tickets to blis summer jam concert on sunday at jones beach with backstage pass' i was like HELL YA... so i took them and when i got home to see where the seats where there like in the 2nd or 3rd row from the stage.. so jess told me she couldnt go so i called billy and my cuz jess.. i no billy's goin but i need to call jess back and see if shes comin... SHOULD BE FUN
Today: Goin to the mall with billy got get an outfit for debs sweet 16 today.... this should be fun |
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[May. 22nd, 2004|03:39 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| | amused | ] |
Friday i did NOTHING... lol i went to bed at 7 and on sat i woke up at like 11
Sat: i went to rikki's soccer game and it was so cute because one of the boys thats in her class was there b/c his sister is on rikki's team and when she got off the field he had a lil hand held fan and he turned it on for her so she could cool off... it was so cute.... then i went to billy's and we played some volleyball with his family and i got a nice tan lol and then we ate some pizza and then we chilled on the roof for a lil and then i went home
then today tommy and nicole came ova and we just chilled and played some football |
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[May. 17th, 2004|08:34 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| | sad | ] |
havent really been updating lately.... really wasnt in the mood....
so friday i went to karate with jess and we did the walk threw for her black belt test... then i came home and just chilled at home
Saturday i woke up and went to the gym with my mom... and as where sitting there my mom was like "jen wuts wrong" and i was like "u woke me at 9 and i went to bed at 12 and im tired" then my mom goes "but u got 9 hours of sleep" and i was like "yea but u need at least 8" lol for some reason i thought she said u got 7 hours of sleep so my mom was like "yea u just one the idiot of the day award" then when we where leaving i found out news that i didnt want to... my aunt has cancer and they dont think that she will make it to my cousin John's wedding in September of 2005... thats only like a year and a half... i hope they are wrong like really wrong.... shes my aunt and as much as i dont see her i dont wanna lose her... i already lost my grandma and i dont think i can lose someone else i love....
Sunday was jess's black belt test... she did do good and i am so proud of her..... CONGRATS JESS |
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[May. 9th, 2004|08:33 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  crappy | ] |
Friday: i chilled at home and watched gothica with my parents
Saturday: i went to the black belt thing with jess, then i went to the mall with billy and brendon and bought our mom's there mothers day gifts
Sunday: uncle vinny came ova and i just hung around the house.. |
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[May. 2nd, 2004|11:25 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | In one ear and out the other |
| | I Believe In A Thing Called Love* The Darkness | ] |
Yesterday i woke up at 6 and went to karate with jess, ant and matt...it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be
then billy came ova and we went to the playground and then went back to my house and deb came ova and we went and got ice and then came back and finished watchin blue crush.... then when deb left billy was spinning and fell on the ground and hit his head on the roots of the tree....
then today...my parents and katies parents went out and me, katie, rikki, and lauren hung out... we played mario party and then watched lord of the rings, then mike came over and we watched some more lord of the rings lol.... im glad mike came ova... hes so fun to jsut chill with lol
school 2morrow grrrrrrrrrrrrr |
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[May. 1st, 2004|06:32 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | In one ear and out the other |
| | Cant let you go * Fabulous | ] |
Last night was so much fun.....
Me and katie went to go see 13 going on 30.. it was such a cute movie.. i enjoyed it.. so when the movie was over we went into the bathroom and i was leaning against the door and my elbows hit the door and the door sung open and i went flying and the door just missed hitting katie in the face it was so funny.... then when we where waiting to get picked up a bunch of black guys drove by and were saying stuff to us and me and katie looked at eachother and we moved closer together.. lol... so we went back to katies and ate pizza and watched Bean and i fell asleep and then at like 11:30 my dad came and got me...
that was such a great night.......
Now i have to go to karate with jess because she's gettin her black belt soon and she needs me to work with her.... ttyl |
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[Apr. 30th, 2004|06:08 am] |
| [ | How I feel |
| | lonely | ] |
Life is a funny thing.... people come and go in you life and you have absoluty no control over what happenes all you can do is sit there and wait. Guys are so odd to figure out. But i've come to the conclusion that im just gonna sit around and let the guy find me. Why should i always be the on to get hurt? Im sick of it. I just want a guy that can make me laugh, make me smile when im upset, hold me when im lost, listen when i need to talk, a guy that knows how to have a good time, most of all i dont just want the guy to be my boyfriend, i want him to be my bestfriend as well...... but who knows if i'll get that |
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[Apr. 27th, 2004|11:25 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
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post a memory of me in the comments. it can be anything you want. then, of course, post this to your journal and see what people remember of you. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2004|01:37 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | In one ear and out the other |
| | Here with out you * 3 Doors Down | ] |
Friday: I got home from school and got my hair highlighted.. then went to karate and then went to chelseas with katie... it was fun... we played this game on ps2 and it was so funny.... nothing like a girls night out~~
Saturday: Got up and got ready for dana's sweet 16... me and katie where the first ones there... wow that was a shock me and her are usally the last lol... had alot of fun.. she looked soo pretty... then i came home and hung out with billy,deb and katie at debs house... i miss hangin out with her so i was glad we hung out like all day yesterday....
Sunday: just gonna chill at home and work on some projects..... |
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[Apr. 18th, 2004|10:08 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | In one ear and out the other |
| | I Fucking Hate You * Godsmack | ] |
friday i went to see the punisher with billy, freddy, and billy's mom.... really good movie
saturday i went to the mall with billy, freddy, and brendon... i was the ONLY girl.... but it was fun we just hung out
then today i went shopping with jess and i bought a pink skirt and a pick top and im gonna wear it 2morrow... and no1 believe me lol wow there in for a surprise 2morrow lol
**When you repeatedly
Take advantage of me
The only thought I get of you sickens me
Everybody knows you're fake
You're everything I fucking hate** |
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[Apr. 11th, 2004|07:19 pm] |
| [ | How I feel |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | In one ear and out the other |
| | I miss you * Blink 182 | ] |
friday: i went to the mall with jess and then to get my nails done then back to the mall with mom and then to karate
Saturday: Jess and Mike came ova and we where gonna go see girl next door but me and mike didnt have id so we couldnt get in... so we went to the mall instead... i got an outfit for dana's sweet 16 and jess got a some clothes... the we came back and watched some of my sweet 16 video.... if i watch it one more time im gonna kill some1...
Today didnt do nething just hung around the house...
"and there u are holding her hand and im lost trying to understand" |
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